I hope he knows....how much pain I am going through now.........

Well I may have thought that my life would go SOO down hill,lets see...
1) I want to get out of my class
2)I am being counselled
3)emotionally challenged
4)mentally wronged
5)confused in heart

crash couse on girls

1.I trust you.
2.I don’t like attention from other men.
3.It doesn’t bother me if you look at other women.
4.It doesn’t matter how much you make.
5.You’re the best I’ve ever had!
6.Size doesn’t matter, it’s how you use it!
7.Your friends are great! I don’t mind if they come over.
8.I don’t mind if you go to a strip club with your friends
9..Nothing is wrong, I'm OK
10.Its just gonna take 10 more mins to put my makeup on

I did something wrong........I tried my best to earn my forgiveness.......that horrible person threw away my heart that I placed into making that JAR of apology stars..........I HATE THAT PERSON. 3 days of little sleep and not enough time for food.....trying to fill the jar as much as I can....hurt

A true friend sees the first tear, catches the second and stops the third. Unlike some of my frens are the cause of my millions of wasted tears

In my life. I hate. I fell in love.

I feel for him. I don't know why. I came naturally. My heart rate increased when I accidentally lokked at him. It is sooo scary. I don't know,I have NEVER felt this way before.

breathing...smiling the simplest things in life,i can barely make it.

CRASH COURSE ON BOYS

1. Guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-he… method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a *********-- Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me." but if he said he doesnt want to talk about it, give him a day or 2 and he will come out

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn’t mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs.

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts lol

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probaly still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

39.Usually (not all the time) it's the guys who have all the millions of girlfriends how treat you bad, most of the "less popular" guys will treat you better.

40.Sometime men appreciate the burden being taken off of them. If you like someone... tell them. Otherwise nothing ever materializes from your feelings.! Most guys like it when girls ask them out

41.99% of the time we didn’t mean to hurt you, so don't take everything we say seriously lol^^

42. Trust us, you are DEFINITELY not always right.If you are wrong just admit it, please.Believe it or not, but we are VERY forgiving

prayer for my fragile heart

I pray to heaven,god,and all the angels. That Love will NEVER ever,knock on my door,the real one,not the crushes and stupid puppy love. If i were to receive such true love,i hope that that person's soul will be blessed abundantly.Protect his willpower to live.Protect my weakling inner soul,my heart.

Love.

Love is a strange and funny thing.I dont get it... i never will i guess,I watch all my friends,one after another fall into the traps,of the mysterious ways of love...what good is there to be in love? why is it sooo yearned for by many people? aslong as you love yourself,it does'nt matter if everyone else hates you....as long as you have that trust with yourself...you can make it.

Love is patient and kind, Love is not jealous, conceited, proud or
boastful, it is not arrogant, selfish, irritable or rude. Love does
not keep a record of wrongs. Love is not happy with evil, but is happy
with the truth, Love never gives up, and its faith, hope and patience
never fail. Love is eternal. ( click share :) & share it with your friends , thank you )

I'm lucky.

I'm lucky to received such good friends,it is a gift from GOD.I know I have been changing from negative to positive,and vice versa but through it all...i have GOOD frens.

If.If.If.What if...it happened.I will suffer the most.Even breathing can become painful.If and If blows up my mind.I am afraid.I don't want it to happen

courage

I don't have the courage to fall in love.I stay away from the people I know I will end up liking.This will hurt me,but its better this way.

will my earth stop rotating soo rapidly

I am terrified.What if somehow,some thing goes wrong...i end up...liking on of them what would i do?it is'nt the rumours,its how I feel...it' can go VERY VERY VERY wrong

change

changing,changed.Over the last 4 months i have been changing,now I am someone i dun know...it has been difficult and everything I go through,but the new me...seems soo horrible but others the people around me seem okay with me,i want to change back to my old self,but it won't be good