There are stuff that even this blog i am keeping secrets from...maybe i should be honest...i guess,but i'm scared what would happen if accidentally someone saw it....

7 years le eh...so long...not seeing my dad...on sun I talked to him on the phone,normally I won't like that,this time was no diff,talking to a stranger you don't know...shittest of them all? Yeah. I hate him I can't accept the fact of which why? I call him dad...damnit

I will protect you for as long as I can. I can't forever,but I'll try. I don't want to see you in shame,but I can't let myself suffer either. For as long as I can. I promise

Lost in trust,I don't know who else to trust in my life. I've taken gamble and lost,I'm sure everyone has lost something too in their life too. Me? I guess its family and friends,understanding and love. But once again I've chosen to trust a new other person,a wiser gamble I feel.

Yesterday,I went to Fran's party. It was fun and all,but no one could tell...I wasn't feeling well. I didn't eat much and was suffering from gastric. I couldn't eat. I had no appetite and felt uneasy. I wanted vomit,I was dizzy,I said nothing. It was their dream to be with Fran,wad was I to do? ruining it was out of the question

I keep posting my statuses abt this particular girl,its funny how she "likes" it,without knowing

I want out,I don't get what I did wrong. Every time it's the same story. I can't, I have to live outta this tragedy.