26/12/09 feeling miserable (quotes from Diary)

Dear Diary,

Today's weather was cold in the morning then humid in the evening. Life is moving slowly for me. I think no, I know my mom is upset over my PSLE score and the school i have ended up in.Guangyang. Although she has expressed her dissatisfaction but ... it is not only her, my grandmother too has joined in.Yesterday she said that a friend of her's grandson or daughter or was it a grandson? Whatever (who cares) scored a 270++ for his/her PSLE i mean no need to emphasize it! I know i am stupid! I will always be the stupid idiot a disgrace to my family.Forever...I did some chores today at least i am useful for something!Yesterday was christmas but i spent it on eating jellyfish with my sis. SO WASTEFUL Oh well... I realized that throughout this journey I have been all alone. WHile other's parents went with them to collect their results i went alone! I walked almost every step of the way ALONE. While Pauline(my sis) was going through this she had my mom there for her, I envy her I am jealous of her. I can't blame my mom she has to work so I will take this as a beginning for Maybelline yap the independant WOman ! YEah!!!

muah, maybelline^^