SIGH...yesterday seems like a dream...... ... ... the running happened all so sudden... the funny thing is that i don't feel tired at least not that much... well I am NEVER gonna run again...again...

I FEEL SICK... not physically well abit physically (caught the flu...) but emotionally I feel empty...it is like i don't live for anything, living from day to day for no reason...i feel soo sick of myself i am a waster a waster for the space i consume the food i take in the air breathe on...there is no purpose for me......i feel awful the other more IMPORTANT ppl die,yet I live on...why? I NEED A REASON...TO LIVE!!!