I have only 1 word to mark my death, FREEDOM. Not only for me to be released but also for those that are suffering due to my existence. I regret deeply for being placed on this earth and apologise sincerely.

Today I had a meet the parents session. I ended up crying throughout the sessions

Malaysia

I went to Malaysia together with my class today,it was unfortunately unpleasant...alot of bitching about,i hate bitching.....the place we visited didn't hold much interest for me and the food for lunch sucked horribly....I'm just glad its all over FINALLY... tomorrow my mom has to meet my form teacher and I'm nervous i failed almost all my subjects

I've been wondering,If I could cry,get angry be happy over that guy then is there a chance that I may like him? I'm not sure If I even like him,but sometimes I feel so safe so happy arnd him,he is certainly charming...

I kept crying....no matter wad,it was'nt going to change....my life was befitted this way and If I won't accept it and kept pushing against it,it won't change...but I can't accept tis I can't accept fate at least NO YET.

nauseous

I puked at bishan library yesterday,I was thinking about all the things I have to deal with,I suddenly felt nauseous ran to the toilet,was'nt in time to go to the toilet bowl I vomited into the sink.....it was grose

Birthday

This year,I'm not looking forward to celebrating my birthday...not interested. I have grown up and matured and learnt that my existence is a mistake and utterly useless....I don't think my birth should be celebrated and I regret for arriving on this earth. I really don't see my worth. Thats why I dun wanna celebrate my birthday

Truth

I am I have always been scared of the truth. I never know wads gonna happen after the truth prevails...this time it could mean me,becoming nothing...worthless and disappearing. Should I unwrap this gift of mystery's? Is it worth it to know it all?

Attracted

This amazing thing. I am somehow attracted to him, even though he is horrible and rude and just opp of my "ideal" i am attracted to tis guy

years and years........i don't wish to regard my birthday this year....its not good. I just want to forget abt it tis year

I can't

I can't let anyone see my blog anymore it has become kinda risky soooooo just me and me reading and updating this blog

some people I know don't now how exactly lucky they are.....YES...i envy them but I know I am blessed in ways,they aren't. and I know whats theirs shall never be mine sooo my extend of "envy" or "jealousy"is not as much.....I just wish they could see how much luckier than me they really are it really pisses me of when they don't see it....soo many others are suffering there and yet they.....haiz well i don't know what to say anymore

seriously i don't know whats wrong with me recently....so fidgety and all....its wwronngg