some people I know don't now how exactly lucky they are.....YES...i envy them but I know I am blessed in ways,they aren't. and I know whats theirs shall never be mine sooo my extend of "envy" or "jealousy"is not as much.....I just wish they could see how much luckier than me they really are it really pisses me of when they don't see it....soo many others are suffering there and yet they.....haiz well i don't know what to say anymore